Looking for Overwhelmed Moms

Well, I am a wife and a overwhelmed mother of 6 wonderful kids.Did I just say wonderful??? I meant little rascals.....:) You did sayyou want honest truth.
Let me introduce my self I am 30 year old,
stay at home, full-time mommy of 6. My Career of Mommy Hood started in 1998when we had our first beautiful little girl. It went like thisElizabeth 9, Nathan 8, Victoria 6, Preston 3, Giavanna 18 mo and lastbut not least out little 5 month old Ashton Luke. I absolutely lovemy children dearly. They are the best thing that ever happened to me,well besides meeting their father. Who is the most incredible lovinghusband and the greatest father that anyone would ever ask for. Is ourlife perfect? Far from perfect, but we do strive to be better parents.Or I should say better parent. At least that's what it feels like mostof the time. I don't want to bash on my husband, but most of time Ifeel so alone and just overwhelmed with my career choice. The reasonI call this my career and not a job. It's because I love it so muchand that's what I wanted to be when I grew up. A job is just 8-5 anda career is for a life time. It is very demanding of me. Where atthe end of the day I am just so exhausted that I can't even get minutefor my self because I rather get some sleep. As soon as I hit thatpillow I am done!!!! The lights go out.

When I saw the title "Searching for overwhelmed moms" I knew right then that I would definitely want to reply to this post. I am not proud to say this, but just being honest I am the Overwhelmed Mom of 6 kids. Even if I don't go on the show, but just to have the opportunity to get all my feelings and daily frustrations out. I hope people might listen to us "MOMS" and understand where we are all coming from.

These were some questions you had up on 5 min for momPerfect little questions. I just can't even believe that I answered them all. I just wounder how many more of these perfect little questions I could answer.

1. Have you been so busy that you've forgotten to do something that couldhave ended in tragedy? Perhaps you have made a mistake that's put yourchild in harm's way.

Oh did I ever forget..... the baby in her carseat, out in theparking lot. Believe it or not it was our first child too. I just wasto busy thinking, making sure, I bought everything that I needed. Put all of my stuff in the car and started to drive off when I turnedmy head, I realized that my baby wasn't in the car . She was still sittingin the parking lot on the ground. Thank God he had his Angels watchingover her and I didn't run her over.

2. Have you been so consumed with getting through your to-do list thatyou didn't notice a child wandered out of the house or camedangerously close to falling in a pool?

Over the fourth of July weekend
We had company, so there was people in and out the house. I was making breakfast for every one. We all sat down and ate. When I started to clean up after breakfast I realized that my 3 year old son wasn't at the breakfast table. So I started asking every one if they had seen him and of course no one has. We all start searching room by room. When he was no where to be found. I had just the most horrible feeling came over me that I won't be able to hold my baby again. I thought he ether drowned in neighbors pool or been ob ducted. When those thoughts went trough my mind I just start screaming. Every one started to run around outside and looking in neighbors pools. He was still was no where to be found. I mean we looked and looked. My last resort was to call one of our neighbors. I asked if Preston was there and I heard the most owesome words. Yes he is! OMG..........I just started to cry because I was so happy to hear that my baby was ok. I will never forget that day. The challenge and the reward of finding my son well and alive.


3. Have you accidentally left your child in the car at the store — ormomentarily forgotten that your child was in the car?

More than once.It is so easy to forget. Especially when they are little and soundasleep. Imagine, the whole time you are getting out of the car and thekids are screaming, yelling, arguing, crying and etc.... it is thebiggest distraction. How could you not forget. Your mind tries toblock everything and everyone out.

4. Do you feel like you're out of control, trying to balance everythingin your family, and scared of what could happen?

Yes, that is what I've been battling with lately.We were all sitting in the family room one evening. My husband was playing with the kids. They were having lot's of fun. I was just sitting there observing and enjoying my self. My oldest daughter approached me and said Mommy why don't you ever like to have fun with us, Daddy always does. I asked what she meant. She said all you do is yell all day and clean. Instead of having fun you make us clean too. I couldn't say another word. I was speechless. It was like someone just knocked me down. How do I balance EVERYTHING in my family so we could all be Happy. How do you find that PERFECT BALANCE? Do you let your house go filthy, or tell your husband you'll spend more time with him when you're retired (that's if he is still around) do you just play have fun and let everything go???? I just do not know how to get that Perfect Balance.

5. Are you sleep deprived or stretched to the point that you fear something awful couldhappen at a moment's notice?

Well, just few days ago my kids had pushed me. I was just to thepoint of the unthinkable (tie the kids up to the chairs and put a sock in their mouth). I quickly realized that I was on THE EDGE soI gave my-self time out. I locked my self in the bathroom and cried,cried, cried.......I cried because I let my self get that far. I wasashamed of my self. I felt like an unworthy good for nothing mother. Ifelt like I didn't even deserved my children and they deserve betterthat I could give them.

So at the end of the day:
The baby won't sleep. The kids won't listen. The house is a mess. Your husband wants to know what is for dinner. And the clock just won't stop.

You can't take this pace much longer.......... But what can you do?

This is my life…my choice......my career....MOMMY HOOD!